Patience and enduring is something that I feel I have always been OK at. But more recently I have had a stronger desire to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am leading my family the way God has called me. Being a spiritual husband is a difficult task, not one that can be learned overnight, and I feel a great sense of need to be more than I have been in the past.
I guess what I really have struggled with is our ministry together. I want to know Gods plans, because for the first time I really feel like I don't know what He is doing and I don't like that feeling. I do know that He is working all things out for our good, but it's a little scary when it's out of my control.
So many things come with marriage. New vision, new love, new ministry. It changes your life. For the better! It's only been nine months, God is still working things out in our lives. It's good, but I am anxious to see a glimpse of the future when it comes to our ministry together.
As far as me becoming a stronger spiritual leader for my family. It's day by day. The desire burns deep, but putting my faith into action in my marriage is something I battle daily. But, overall, I am pressing through it, and will soon be through to the other side.
God's Vision: It's being worked out daily.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Faith ~ Not Emotion
My Utmost For His Highest
May 1
There was a time several years ago when I lived my christian faith on cloud nine. I would experience the move of the Holy Spirit every time would worship, pray, and attend service. I was working in full time ministry at Teen Challenge and was completely surrounded by others who were constantly on fire for Christ. It was easy to live by faith in that little world I was living in.
But, in December of 2004, I moved on from that particular ministry and the covering that I had lived under for so long. I got a regular job and just lived a "normal" everyday life. I attended church regularly and continued my christian walk. But something changed. I didn't physically or emotionally feel the presence of God with every moment I spent with Him, I didn't always hear His voice and seldom felt His prompting. I was still in the will of God, and my worship and prayer had not changed. God was changing me! He was testing my faith. Could I still do the work of the Lord without the "cloud nine" experience to drive and inspire me? Could I truly life by faith in the thing that is unseen, unheard, and un-felt?
To be completely honest with you, God is still building my character in this. I am still learning to do the Lords work, to be inspired and passionate about my walk with God without having that "cloud nine experience." I am learning daily the importance of prayer and daily devotions. I am learning the importance of being a spiritual head for my wife. And most importantly, God is always preparing me for a great work.
We can not always depend on good feelings and emotional highs to support our walk with Christ. The past few years have been an incredible growing experience for me and I have had to learn how to stand on my own two feet. I have stumbled and at times even fallen. But, my faith is strong and God is alive in me.
May 1
There was a time several years ago when I lived my christian faith on cloud nine. I would experience the move of the Holy Spirit every time would worship, pray, and attend service. I was working in full time ministry at Teen Challenge and was completely surrounded by others who were constantly on fire for Christ. It was easy to live by faith in that little world I was living in.
But, in December of 2004, I moved on from that particular ministry and the covering that I had lived under for so long. I got a regular job and just lived a "normal" everyday life. I attended church regularly and continued my christian walk. But something changed. I didn't physically or emotionally feel the presence of God with every moment I spent with Him, I didn't always hear His voice and seldom felt His prompting. I was still in the will of God, and my worship and prayer had not changed. God was changing me! He was testing my faith. Could I still do the work of the Lord without the "cloud nine" experience to drive and inspire me? Could I truly life by faith in the thing that is unseen, unheard, and un-felt?
To be completely honest with you, God is still building my character in this. I am still learning to do the Lords work, to be inspired and passionate about my walk with God without having that "cloud nine experience." I am learning daily the importance of prayer and daily devotions. I am learning the importance of being a spiritual head for my wife. And most importantly, God is always preparing me for a great work.
We can not always depend on good feelings and emotional highs to support our walk with Christ. The past few years have been an incredible growing experience for me and I have had to learn how to stand on my own two feet. I have stumbled and at times even fallen. But, my faith is strong and God is alive in me.
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